havent been blogging for the past few days. kinda busy spending time with wilfred.
today, i'm sick.
fever, flu, drowsiness, sore throat, headache....
everything also kana already.
took half a day off from the boss.
later go work c how. if worsen when i wake up or i dun feel fit to go work i'll most prob juz not go.
after takin half a day off (tuesday) when i actually was already sick since monday but i went out with wilfred and 3 of his bunk mates. wasn't so serious until later at night when the flu got worse. slept with my dad and the stupid air con was killing me. end up only slept 2 hrs... (4:30am till 6:30am) so after going to work the next day (wednesday) i felt kinda sucky. at work place all the sickness started and i was damn sick and drowsy so i left at about closing to 12pm. went to wilfred hse cos it's nearer and i rather be with him. didn't go doc... but took panadol frm his mum and some vitamic c pills. we walked over to IKEA when i started having fever. i sweat while walking so my fever temporarily went away. but it soon came back and haunt me sometime in the evening. really irritating and this time i felt even worse with the headache. i took a panadol and drifted off to slp with wilfred. (we had ice cream earlier on, and btw, ikea's havin annual sale) we slept for about an hour plus without much fan, and so i was sweating and when i woke up, i felt much better and the headache was gone. only thing left was the blocked nose and sore throat. i spent about 10 hours with wilfred today. time passes by so quickly. haiz. right now i'm having some nose problem again n sore throat. hope it gets better when i wake up. hate being sick.
wilfred is really sweet n nice now. treats me well. he act cute sial lolz duno how to describe...
27 July 2003
i spent a really gd day with wilfred.
not only did i tell him what i've been feeling all these while...
my fears.. my inability to fully trust or believe wad i am experiencing becos of my previous hurt.. letting him know i nid time... the fact that he is v impt... he returned me with his honesty abt how he felt.... his thoughts.... and everything.... i felt really gd. i like it when we get to talk like this.... we're gonna go a long way yeah...
i picked him up at 8 this morning.
then we went back home and all...
he used computer for awhile before the two of us head off to orchard at about 4 in the afternoon.
the two of us walked around for awhile and went onto cine to check out movie time slots. i bought some cherry tomatoes and shared with wil and sano. wilfred's friend, joannes and patrick came. (his bunk mates) we went to watch T3. quite a nice movie lah.... but abit short.
funny thing was when me n wil sat at starbucks and he told me abt stuff his mum said abt me which i never knew. he said that in a way she tot of me as a daughter in law already cos when that incident happened (when nearly XXXXXXX) those who know me well, will know wad happened, wil told his bro wad happened, and his bro told his mum wad happened and guess wad? wil's mum scolded wilfred haahhaha. say although i not say v pretty (diao) she can see i treat him v gd how come he do like that to me..... bla bla LOL then once in awhile will nag say a wife shld do hsework.... bla bla (mean i shld help ard in their hse with the hse wrk) wahhhh.... funny. hahahaha
not only did i tell him what i've been feeling all these while...
my fears.. my inability to fully trust or believe wad i am experiencing becos of my previous hurt.. letting him know i nid time... the fact that he is v impt... he returned me with his honesty abt how he felt.... his thoughts.... and everything.... i felt really gd. i like it when we get to talk like this.... we're gonna go a long way yeah...
i picked him up at 8 this morning.
then we went back home and all...
he used computer for awhile before the two of us head off to orchard at about 4 in the afternoon.
the two of us walked around for awhile and went onto cine to check out movie time slots. i bought some cherry tomatoes and shared with wil and sano. wilfred's friend, joannes and patrick came. (his bunk mates) we went to watch T3. quite a nice movie lah.... but abit short.
funny thing was when me n wil sat at starbucks and he told me abt stuff his mum said abt me which i never knew. he said that in a way she tot of me as a daughter in law already cos when that incident happened (when nearly XXXXXXX) those who know me well, will know wad happened, wil told his bro wad happened, and his bro told his mum wad happened and guess wad? wil's mum scolded wilfred haahhaha. say although i not say v pretty (diao) she can see i treat him v gd how come he do like that to me..... bla bla LOL then once in awhile will nag say a wife shld do hsework.... bla bla (mean i shld help ard in their hse with the hse wrk) wahhhh.... funny. hahahaha
26 July 2003
time is starting to eat into me.
no sms.
no phone calls.
no contact.
am waiting for him to call.
standby at NDP preview.
wad a drag.
such a waste of our precious time.
he could've booked out todae.
second them for them to steal such moments of mine away.
downloaded some songs n mpeg.
mpeg: namie amuro - Put 'em Down
songs: Jaurin - Vlad, Wong Lee Hom - last night
no sms.
no phone calls.
no contact.
am waiting for him to call.
standby at NDP preview.
wad a drag.
such a waste of our precious time.
he could've booked out todae.
second them for them to steal such moments of mine away.
downloaded some songs n mpeg.
mpeg: namie amuro - Put 'em Down
songs: Jaurin - Vlad, Wong Lee Hom - last night
25 July 2003
suddenly i decided to post a list of the stuff i like. in case the next time i do one of those long quiz and brain dead, duno wad to answer hahaha
Movies:
English
Patch Adams
A Walk to Remember
A.I
I am Sam
Wedding Singer
Blubber
X-MEN 2
Sweet Home Alabama
Interview with the Vampire
Japanese
Love Letter
Messenger
Water boys
Chinese
can�t quite state cos i simple like too many already and some i don�t know the name. It�s one of those HK movies e.g huang fei hung series or those kung fu type...
J-Drama:
GTO
Hito ni Yasashiku (3 Peace) *if anyone know where i can get the box set pls let me know, thnx*
Ikebukuro West Gate Park
Kindaichi Shonen no Jikembo
Fighting Girl
Akimahende
Ao no jidai ~Blue Days~
Ao Tori a.k.a Loiseau Blue
Beach Boys
Futari
Koi no Kiseki
Omiai Kekkon
Tabloid
Garasu no Kamen *if anyone know where i can get the box set pls let me know, thnx*
DOKU starring Katori Shingo (SMAP)
::wan to try n watch. But gotta buy it first. Any one know where to get it? If u guys dun mind help me ask ard or when u see vcd shops help me check. I�ll pay u later::
Movies:
English
Patch Adams
A Walk to Remember
A.I
I am Sam
Wedding Singer
Blubber
X-MEN 2
Sweet Home Alabama
Interview with the Vampire
Japanese
Love Letter
Messenger
Water boys
Chinese
can�t quite state cos i simple like too many already and some i don�t know the name. It�s one of those HK movies e.g huang fei hung series or those kung fu type...
J-Drama:
GTO
Hito ni Yasashiku (3 Peace) *if anyone know where i can get the box set pls let me know, thnx*
Ikebukuro West Gate Park
Kindaichi Shonen no Jikembo
Fighting Girl
Akimahende
Ao no jidai ~Blue Days~
Ao Tori a.k.a Loiseau Blue
Beach Boys
Futari
Koi no Kiseki
Omiai Kekkon
Tabloid
Garasu no Kamen *if anyone know where i can get the box set pls let me know, thnx*
DOKU starring Katori Shingo (SMAP)
::wan to try n watch. But gotta buy it first. Any one know where to get it? If u guys dun mind help me ask ard or when u see vcd shops help me check. I�ll pay u later::
Sanada Hiroyuki
aged 43
born on the 21st of October, 1960
Libra
Blood typed A
170cm in height
who's this old guy?
a man whom i saw, starring in a japanese drama "Tabloid" (taburoido) next to Tokiwa Takako (Beautifu Life lead actress)
i saw this drama long ago but i alwaiz didn't manage to get his name.. hahaha
why i like this old guy? he is charming. hahaha as simple as that.
a serious actor.. i actually saw in a couple of other films... if u remember, he was the professor in The Ring (ringu)
*SwoOn*
Sanada filmography
About SanaDa
24 July 2003
ONE MORE DAY OF WORK AND I AM FREEEEEEEEEE TO SEE WILFRED BWAHAHAHA...
tml is casual friday. can wear home clothes whee. damn those stupid heels and office wear. irritating hahaha can't walk properly.. can't wait for sunday to come!!! WHEEEEEE then the whole week shiok ar! can be wilfred the whole week!
dennis todae keep suaning my food. basket.
cock up sial todae suppose to help transfer one call end up duno press wad button hahaha
tml is casual friday. can wear home clothes whee. damn those stupid heels and office wear. irritating hahaha can't walk properly.. can't wait for sunday to come!!! WHEEEEEE then the whole week shiok ar! can be wilfred the whole week!
dennis todae keep suaning my food. basket.
cock up sial todae suppose to help transfer one call end up duno press wad button hahaha
23 July 2003
another tiring day.
two more days of work.
*sigh*
am now waiting for wilfred's call...
yifeng told me she's moving into a hostel in king george
for her university reasons.
today had two rounds of meeting
one with the BIG boss
then he got the indian accent abit...
all the 'velly good' 'i vill do this...'
all the W become V liao.
anyway he looks kinda... stricter than nambi.
then after the meetin with the big boss we had meetin wif mr nambi.
told him abt our work progress so far then when all's done,
i was told to stay back to talk to him more.
cos he looked through my log bk liao and nid to sign
so he ask me some qns also... stuff like if i'm adapting well or not...
i had lunch with the guys at bk again.
shit mani think i'm getting fat soon.. better stop junk food
dennis face no oil still ask for blotter frm me then we had a short tug of war
lolz
that's pretty much my day at work. pretty boring in fact.
big boss sit behind me i v stress. can't chat online much. basket.
two more days of work.
*sigh*
am now waiting for wilfred's call...
yifeng told me she's moving into a hostel in king george
for her university reasons.
today had two rounds of meeting
one with the BIG boss
then he got the indian accent abit...
all the 'velly good' 'i vill do this...'
all the W become V liao.
anyway he looks kinda... stricter than nambi.
then after the meetin with the big boss we had meetin wif mr nambi.
told him abt our work progress so far then when all's done,
i was told to stay back to talk to him more.
cos he looked through my log bk liao and nid to sign
so he ask me some qns also... stuff like if i'm adapting well or not...
i had lunch with the guys at bk again.
shit mani think i'm getting fat soon.. better stop junk food
dennis face no oil still ask for blotter frm me then we had a short tug of war
lolz
that's pretty much my day at work. pretty boring in fact.
big boss sit behind me i v stress. can't chat online much. basket.
hm..
juz some thoughts in my mind disturbing me.
i guess she hardly haf the time to read my blog to read this entry..
would most prob be stuck somewhere in the archives by the time she checks it.
used to be best friends in pri 5.
still think of her as one.
but r we?
or haf we juz... drifted to being juz close old frenz.
can't help to be jealous
when i see her excited abt that alwaiz mentioned name in her blog.
not once i saw my name
lolz
sounds silly..
but it feels sad
when u feel... less impt in someone's life when u tot they were v impt in urs..
sure, we click damn well.
we can juz pick up frm where we left off even if we havent met for years.
but there's something missing.
we're not involved much in each other's life.
she does her own stuff..
i do mine..
kinda sad thinking abt this...
i learnt to let go..
when years ago i was still trying hard to contact her to ask her out
i do contact her very occasionally nowadays..
but it saddens me when i seldom c her contact me before i do....
thinking abt this makes me emotional...
sad...
but then again.. i know something has changed
i no longer cry
for the pain has lessened.
....somehow....
juz some thoughts in my mind disturbing me.
i guess she hardly haf the time to read my blog to read this entry..
would most prob be stuck somewhere in the archives by the time she checks it.
used to be best friends in pri 5.
still think of her as one.
but r we?
or haf we juz... drifted to being juz close old frenz.
can't help to be jealous
when i see her excited abt that alwaiz mentioned name in her blog.
not once i saw my name
lolz
sounds silly..
but it feels sad
when u feel... less impt in someone's life when u tot they were v impt in urs..
sure, we click damn well.
we can juz pick up frm where we left off even if we havent met for years.
but there's something missing.
we're not involved much in each other's life.
she does her own stuff..
i do mine..
kinda sad thinking abt this...
i learnt to let go..
when years ago i was still trying hard to contact her to ask her out
i do contact her very occasionally nowadays..
but it saddens me when i seldom c her contact me before i do....
thinking abt this makes me emotional...
sad...
but then again.. i know something has changed
i no longer cry
for the pain has lessened.
....somehow....
22 July 2003
sucha freakingly boring day at work today.
i came early and the boss weren't even there yet. so i had to wait outside for awhile... well ... i was early anyway. slept throughout my bus trips to work and back home. tired sial..
whole day RESEARCH RESEARCH RESEARCH
FED UP SIA!
like it's neverending loh! ok lah mebbe it is but still.... i had to look through HUNDREDS *yeah u heard me right* HUNDREDS of financial statements and websites to look for the stupid answers i need to answer.... it's like i'm not even half done and i'm already approaching mid-week. deadline is next friday. how sia.. sure cannot make it. to make things worse, i found japanese websites. and those ppl who know me well in sch, my sense of responsibility is v strong. sometimes it kills me cos of that and becos i stumble across companies i know is gd, i'll juz add it into my list for research and adding more load to my burden. much more worse was the fact that the words in those japanese websites come to me like loads and loads of codes which i dun understand and when i look at the financial statements, i can juz die cos i dun understand a word of it. damn!
DUN TELL ME i haf to call up the japan commerce association or wadever to ask them for the figures! no way! shit!
well happy thing was shaikha's bf (Maha) passed his IPPT (physical test) too!! and i get to meet wilfred on sunday and he has one WHOLE WEEK off!!!! and finally i'll get to walk ard jurong pt with him (usually can't cos he dread being near camp) and we can watch movie and for at least a week i can hear his voice as and when i wanna!!! i heard frm wil yesterday that joannes fail... (some guy in his bunk) cos of his 2.4km run.. joannes is of what i know, quite soft spoken guy. but he abit cute cute short short. in fact he not too bad looking actually.... arm damn thick n muscular.. wilfred say he can do thousand of pushups. but the only thing is he shorter than..... ME! no joke! then cos they had three chances of taking the IPPT test and wilfred finally passed the last one (if not no chance liao) and joannes fail and finally, even the strong cannot hold back his emotions n disappointment no more. wil said joannes cried. well, my fren told me anyway (ROD liao) NS is where even the toughest guy cry. or at least some. ~_~ hehe anywayz.... let's hope tml will be a better day for me, my frens, whoever's doin SIP too and karen. poor gal cried todae and came lookin for me. wasn't able to help much but to provide a listenin ear. hope that helped at least.
my colleague say i too hardworking haha *it's me lah* say i set the standard too high... in terms of quality of research. well i'm like that one. u nid to gimme a quota or i'll juz keep finding and finding cos i abit perfectionist.
i came early and the boss weren't even there yet. so i had to wait outside for awhile... well ... i was early anyway. slept throughout my bus trips to work and back home. tired sial..
whole day RESEARCH RESEARCH RESEARCH
FED UP SIA!
like it's neverending loh! ok lah mebbe it is but still.... i had to look through HUNDREDS *yeah u heard me right* HUNDREDS of financial statements and websites to look for the stupid answers i need to answer.... it's like i'm not even half done and i'm already approaching mid-week. deadline is next friday. how sia.. sure cannot make it. to make things worse, i found japanese websites. and those ppl who know me well in sch, my sense of responsibility is v strong. sometimes it kills me cos of that and becos i stumble across companies i know is gd, i'll juz add it into my list for research and adding more load to my burden. much more worse was the fact that the words in those japanese websites come to me like loads and loads of codes which i dun understand and when i look at the financial statements, i can juz die cos i dun understand a word of it. damn!
DUN TELL ME i haf to call up the japan commerce association or wadever to ask them for the figures! no way! shit!
well happy thing was shaikha's bf (Maha) passed his IPPT (physical test) too!! and i get to meet wilfred on sunday and he has one WHOLE WEEK off!!!! and finally i'll get to walk ard jurong pt with him (usually can't cos he dread being near camp) and we can watch movie and for at least a week i can hear his voice as and when i wanna!!! i heard frm wil yesterday that joannes fail... (some guy in his bunk) cos of his 2.4km run.. joannes is of what i know, quite soft spoken guy. but he abit cute cute short short. in fact he not too bad looking actually.... arm damn thick n muscular.. wilfred say he can do thousand of pushups. but the only thing is he shorter than..... ME! no joke! then cos they had three chances of taking the IPPT test and wilfred finally passed the last one (if not no chance liao) and joannes fail and finally, even the strong cannot hold back his emotions n disappointment no more. wil said joannes cried. well, my fren told me anyway (ROD liao) NS is where even the toughest guy cry. or at least some. ~_~ hehe anywayz.... let's hope tml will be a better day for me, my frens, whoever's doin SIP too and karen. poor gal cried todae and came lookin for me. wasn't able to help much but to provide a listenin ear. hope that helped at least.
my colleague say i too hardworking haha *it's me lah* say i set the standard too high... in terms of quality of research. well i'm like that one. u nid to gimme a quota or i'll juz keep finding and finding cos i abit perfectionist.
21 July 2003
"Nw can't use the phone... later den i call u... my ippt later then i tell u.. *shy*"
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh *bite wilfred multipe times*
HE NO WAN TELL ME HE PASS OR FAIL!!!!!
BASKET!!!
purposely.. drag time.. grrrrr!!!!!
what he did:
1. Tell me 1 bad news. he got to standby on sat.
2. tell me he waiting for water parade and finish dinner liao
3. avoid telling me pass or fail
4. he use hp sms me all the while
my analysis:
1. He passed because,
2. he delay time. if bad news, he know i'll be damn sad, he wun dare do such thing.
3. he'll be damn sad. wun hav the feeling for such joke either
4. he "hehe" alot. if fail where will hav feeling to laugh??
5. he is one stupid boi
so my conclusion is... he most probably passed. HEHE plus for the whole day i had a hunch he'll pass.
*several minutes later*
sms frm wilfred: "Muah lah hehe.. the standby thing is true but.. I PASSED! later on the phone i gif u more details yeah :o)"
FUCKIN TIRED.
so freakin tired and my back is aching like hell and i can't concentrate cos my mind is constantly thinking abt wilfred and his physical test. kanchiong like fuck. damn. whole day researchresearchresearchresearch and more research. nothing but research. looking through tons and tons of websites searching for the stupid information...
can't stand it.
so freakin tired and my back is aching like hell and i can't concentrate cos my mind is constantly thinking abt wilfred and his physical test. kanchiong like fuck. damn. whole day researchresearchresearchresearch and more research. nothing but research. looking through tons and tons of websites searching for the stupid information...
can't stand it.
20 July 2003
rushed day.
woke up at 6, reached wilfred's camp outside at 8:15AM.
he had to do standby on saturday...
so today then get to book out.....
he only came out at 8:45AM...
then i waited for him to come out and HE STINKS! hahaha
basically we took a cab back home and i made him bathe immediately... after he bathe, he burnt a cd and after that we used the computer for awhile.. i showed him the Final Fantasy X-2 clips i burnt into a CD and after that we juz talk lah the whole day then erm.... had lunch... and i ironed his shirt... i spent alot of time talking to him and juz mainly catching up and talking and lotsa hugs n stuff. he gotta book in TONITE. sick right!? anyway.. time is precious and although i did cry once in awhile cos of some stuff lah then... i'm happy loh.. to seem him. our relationship only gets stronger and stronger and i love him more than juz a bf. lolz he is my best friend! what more can i ask for haha..
the time we have today is SO short..... it pains to think abt it... and when i see him go back to camp... it was even worse. i'll miss him so much! so much.... i was struggling with my emotions... trying not to cry... frm the moment i left him to go to the bus stop.... till i was in the bus.... till i was in the train... i did not recover. i was still struggling.... only until lakeside mrt stn.. then did i slowly start to calm dwn... then i went into a aimless state of mind... and drifted off to slp soon after.
i juz feel like hugging him forever haha... damn now i miss him like nuts. it's juz not enough... haiz... now i can't wait for the next saturday to come along.
woke up at 6, reached wilfred's camp outside at 8:15AM.
he had to do standby on saturday...
so today then get to book out.....
he only came out at 8:45AM...
then i waited for him to come out and HE STINKS! hahaha
basically we took a cab back home and i made him bathe immediately... after he bathe, he burnt a cd and after that we used the computer for awhile.. i showed him the Final Fantasy X-2 clips i burnt into a CD and after that we juz talk lah the whole day then erm.... had lunch... and i ironed his shirt... i spent alot of time talking to him and juz mainly catching up and talking and lotsa hugs n stuff. he gotta book in TONITE. sick right!? anyway.. time is precious and although i did cry once in awhile cos of some stuff lah then... i'm happy loh.. to seem him. our relationship only gets stronger and stronger and i love him more than juz a bf. lolz he is my best friend! what more can i ask for haha..
the time we have today is SO short..... it pains to think abt it... and when i see him go back to camp... it was even worse. i'll miss him so much! so much.... i was struggling with my emotions... trying not to cry... frm the moment i left him to go to the bus stop.... till i was in the bus.... till i was in the train... i did not recover. i was still struggling.... only until lakeside mrt stn.. then did i slowly start to calm dwn... then i went into a aimless state of mind... and drifted off to slp soon after.
i juz feel like hugging him forever haha... damn now i miss him like nuts. it's juz not enough... haiz... now i can't wait for the next saturday to come along.
wilfred is coming out at 8AM IN THE MORNING tomorrow~~~~!!!
so freakin early!!!! haiz haiz but nvm.. get to spend more time with him..
i'm picking him up hahaha....
i'm finally done with my pucca stitching!!! and asking mama help me sew into pillow casing liao..
i actually brought some work back home to do........ but then.. havent touch wahahahha
lazy ger...
so freakin early!!!! haiz haiz but nvm.. get to spend more time with him..
i'm picking him up hahaha....
i'm finally done with my pucca stitching!!! and asking mama help me sew into pillow casing liao..
i actually brought some work back home to do........ but then.. havent touch wahahahha
lazy ger...
18 July 2003
Wah piang damn tired. haha sorry lah twit.... it became a bad habit of mine. keep saying "basket".
it happens. hahahaha i went to billy bomber or wadever u call it for dinner with jere and YK... actually pat, shai, terry and mike was supposed to join or rather, i asked them along but shai was unwell, mike had to do OT, terry had appointment and pat had to work till 10pm so.... ahaha end up only three ppl go. we all ate and then after that walked around and then soon we went into this sony shop i finally got my CD-Rs!!!! hahahaha i was lookin for a shop that sells it so desperately... anyway then we went into a phone shop then YK say wan to find a male wear shop.. it's called SEED or something. quite nice. mebbe nxt time bring wilfred there. had fun lah... i dun wanna tok abt work haha cos i wanna rest now. was supposed to meet up with karen for lunch but had meeting and only get to come out at 12:09... so i hav to call her up to apologies and cancel the lunch meeting.
jeremy was dramatically telling me abt the blunders he made at work and YK seem to be workin in a really cool and hip firm. advertising. ppl there are young and all... haiz. i envy him somehow haha.. as for pat and shaikha.. well they hav their probs at work. i'm v much inbtwn. quite boring but no big prob so i'll live i guess hahaha....
will get to see wilfred on sunday.
am looking very forward to it..
it happens. hahahaha i went to billy bomber or wadever u call it for dinner with jere and YK... actually pat, shai, terry and mike was supposed to join or rather, i asked them along but shai was unwell, mike had to do OT, terry had appointment and pat had to work till 10pm so.... ahaha end up only three ppl go. we all ate and then after that walked around and then soon we went into this sony shop i finally got my CD-Rs!!!! hahahaha i was lookin for a shop that sells it so desperately... anyway then we went into a phone shop then YK say wan to find a male wear shop.. it's called SEED or something. quite nice. mebbe nxt time bring wilfred there. had fun lah... i dun wanna tok abt work haha cos i wanna rest now. was supposed to meet up with karen for lunch but had meeting and only get to come out at 12:09... so i hav to call her up to apologies and cancel the lunch meeting.
jeremy was dramatically telling me abt the blunders he made at work and YK seem to be workin in a really cool and hip firm. advertising. ppl there are young and all... haiz. i envy him somehow haha.. as for pat and shaikha.. well they hav their probs at work. i'm v much inbtwn. quite boring but no big prob so i'll live i guess hahaha....
will get to see wilfred on sunday.
am looking very forward to it..
17 July 2003
*OoPs?*
overhead indian boss speaking ChiNeSe!!!
he sounded quite cute haha but still!!! oh geez now i can't bad mouth him in chinese wahahhaha jk jk but it's scary cos like when u speak chinese then he'll know.. risky hahahaha gotta produce a documentation today.. tiring. the guys did their job but dennis did v little. basket. and guess wad, i gotta do all the editing. all those stupid idiots.
overhead indian boss speaking ChiNeSe!!!
he sounded quite cute haha but still!!! oh geez now i can't bad mouth him in chinese wahahhaha jk jk but it's scary cos like when u speak chinese then he'll know.. risky hahahaha gotta produce a documentation today.. tiring. the guys did their job but dennis did v little. basket. and guess wad, i gotta do all the editing. all those stupid idiots.
had a few bite of peanut porridge this morning but right now i'm damn hungry.
stomach have been grumbling non stop for a very long time
logged onto msn at work but can't chat. duno why
basket.
hopefully can eat pasta mania later but it's pretty unlikely..
think mebbe BK.. cos ravin sorta own marc lunch hahaha
for a favour he did for ravin yesterday...
I.AM.SO.HUNGRY.SO.HUNGRY.STOMACH.GRUMBLING.SOMEBODY.POST.ME.SOME.FOOD.PLS!
i'm tempted to ask karen out for lunch. hm
stomach have been grumbling non stop for a very long time
logged onto msn at work but can't chat. duno why
basket.
hopefully can eat pasta mania later but it's pretty unlikely..
think mebbe BK.. cos ravin sorta own marc lunch hahaha
for a favour he did for ravin yesterday...
I.AM.SO.HUNGRY.SO.HUNGRY.STOMACH.GRUMBLING.SOMEBODY.POST.ME.SOME.FOOD.PLS!
i'm tempted to ask karen out for lunch. hm
fourth day at work and soon it's gonna be the end of the workin week for me tml.. hehe
was super early for work today.. basket.
muz revise what time to go board the bus next time..
karen landed herself in big trouble yesterday and as for shaikha,
her LO will be going down to meet her supervisor later.
i wonder some ppl.. how come they like to make thing difficult for ppl
live in harmony cannot meh? idiot sia..
wilfred gave me some gd news to b happy abt.
on national day altho it's on a saturday,
he is able to book out on friday night!! i'm gonna go pick him up for sure.
hehehehehe
so happy.
hmm can't say my work place here fantastic lah
but at least i hav a gd boss who seems v concerned abt our learning
and i do start to feel as if everyday i learn something new so.. it's goin well..
my colleagues n i get along quite all right..
besides the usual school assignments of ejournal and reflection in the log bk
my boss asked us to do something extra.
a journal saying what task we have accomplished by the end of each day in a week.
wah..
hahaha
my friend say i look like twenty plus in my office wear. adoi.. i 19 only k!!
in fact every yr frm now on i'll consider myself at the most 20. HAHAHA..
woman's age is a sensitive issue.
i hate putting make up to work but if not i look like yao guai (monster)
so.. haiz.. rest my face on weekends.
too much cosmetic bad for skin.
OH YAH FORGOT TO MENTION!
my latest *personal* project: PUCCA PILLOW!
wahahaha i am cross-stitching a pucca picture to make into a pillow for wilfred hahaha
i've completed the hair last night. tonight try to finish the red portions.
was super early for work today.. basket.
muz revise what time to go board the bus next time..
karen landed herself in big trouble yesterday and as for shaikha,
her LO will be going down to meet her supervisor later.
i wonder some ppl.. how come they like to make thing difficult for ppl
live in harmony cannot meh? idiot sia..
wilfred gave me some gd news to b happy abt.
on national day altho it's on a saturday,
he is able to book out on friday night!! i'm gonna go pick him up for sure.
hehehehehe
so happy.
hmm can't say my work place here fantastic lah
but at least i hav a gd boss who seems v concerned abt our learning
and i do start to feel as if everyday i learn something new so.. it's goin well..
my colleagues n i get along quite all right..
besides the usual school assignments of ejournal and reflection in the log bk
my boss asked us to do something extra.
a journal saying what task we have accomplished by the end of each day in a week.
wah..
hahaha
my friend say i look like twenty plus in my office wear. adoi.. i 19 only k!!
in fact every yr frm now on i'll consider myself at the most 20. HAHAHA..
woman's age is a sensitive issue.
i hate putting make up to work but if not i look like yao guai (monster)
so.. haiz.. rest my face on weekends.
too much cosmetic bad for skin.
OH YAH FORGOT TO MENTION!
my latest *personal* project: PUCCA PILLOW!
wahahaha i am cross-stitching a pucca picture to make into a pillow for wilfred hahaha
i've completed the hair last night. tonight try to finish the red portions.
15 July 2003
i'm recovering already.. missed wilfred alot...
everytime i think abt him today i felt like crying so that makes it 'wanting to cry the whole day' and when i take out the recently taken neoprint to look at his face... my eyes immediately get filled with tears.
haiz
i don't want to think anymore. all i want, is to hear his voice soon. hope he calls me.
i didn't hav a bad day today.
didn't go to work cos i'm excused to go attend my ceremony in sch. tediously and boringly long ceremony. lotsa smart ppl. only one event caught my full attention. some law student singing "phantom of the opera"... his voice is very gd i must say i definitely enjoyed his singing. the girls pale in comparison. i hav no idea wad the dance students were doing. the dance seems.. abit messy. timing not accurate for some.
anyway after that whole thing finish, it was already nearly five in the afternoon. dad n mum brought me to roxy square to hav steamboat there. quite expensive. now i'm juz relaxing at hm n waiting for wilfred to call me. i talked to ravin, my fellow intern frm BIT on msn yesterday... chatted quite alot. at least i'm happy i hav someone i can click with at work.
during the ceremony earlier on i had lotsa emotional surges... had to fight them off. i think i'm not the only one who's getting shit. shaikha had a very bad day today. first her boss. which is sucha a bitch frm wad i heard. then her couldn't-care-less LO, and same bad news frm maha (which i've gotten frm wilfred).. and she has to work on weekends. i think she's worse than me. at least i still get to see wil on sunday. i shld pick myself up. can't stand seeing myself being such a wreck.
everytime i think abt him today i felt like crying so that makes it 'wanting to cry the whole day' and when i take out the recently taken neoprint to look at his face... my eyes immediately get filled with tears.
haiz
i don't want to think anymore. all i want, is to hear his voice soon. hope he calls me.
i didn't hav a bad day today.
didn't go to work cos i'm excused to go attend my ceremony in sch. tediously and boringly long ceremony. lotsa smart ppl. only one event caught my full attention. some law student singing "phantom of the opera"... his voice is very gd i must say i definitely enjoyed his singing. the girls pale in comparison. i hav no idea wad the dance students were doing. the dance seems.. abit messy. timing not accurate for some.
anyway after that whole thing finish, it was already nearly five in the afternoon. dad n mum brought me to roxy square to hav steamboat there. quite expensive. now i'm juz relaxing at hm n waiting for wilfred to call me. i talked to ravin, my fellow intern frm BIT on msn yesterday... chatted quite alot. at least i'm happy i hav someone i can click with at work.
during the ceremony earlier on i had lotsa emotional surges... had to fight them off. i think i'm not the only one who's getting shit. shaikha had a very bad day today. first her boss. which is sucha a bitch frm wad i heard. then her couldn't-care-less LO, and same bad news frm maha (which i've gotten frm wilfred).. and she has to work on weekends. i think she's worse than me. at least i still get to see wil on sunday. i shld pick myself up. can't stand seeing myself being such a wreck.
realised how emotionally weak i am.
without wilfred's supporting my emotional side, i collapse in a blink of an eye.
muz learn to be independent!
must!
if not can't survive.
i'm devastated and unmotivated cos of some news i had frm him....
no mood to work....
lotsa stress cos relationship related stuff too...
task give at work oso very jia lat...
boring workin environment...
i miss wilfred so much...
i wan or rather, i yearn to see him right now...
but i know i can't.
i have disappointment in me...
and really wan to spend more time with him....
miss him like crazy
feel like bursting inside cos of the stress i have...
paranoia is my worse enemy
stress is another. i can never perform under stress.
sometimes... loving someone make u strong.... but loving someone makes u very weak too.
strong when u think he/she is supporting u and thro that u get motivated
weak when u miss him/her and is collapsing in depression and stress..
*sigh*
I MISS WILFRED DARNIT!
without wilfred's supporting my emotional side, i collapse in a blink of an eye.
muz learn to be independent!
must!
if not can't survive.
i'm devastated and unmotivated cos of some news i had frm him....
no mood to work....
lotsa stress cos relationship related stuff too...
task give at work oso very jia lat...
boring workin environment...
i miss wilfred so much...
i wan or rather, i yearn to see him right now...
but i know i can't.
i have disappointment in me...
and really wan to spend more time with him....
miss him like crazy
feel like bursting inside cos of the stress i have...
paranoia is my worse enemy
stress is another. i can never perform under stress.
sometimes... loving someone make u strong.... but loving someone makes u very weak too.
strong when u think he/she is supporting u and thro that u get motivated
weak when u miss him/her and is collapsing in depression and stress..
*sigh*
I MISS WILFRED DARNIT!
14 July 2003
first day at work.
raffles place, some business IT consultancy company
office space: small
staff around: 4
race of majority of staff or rather, ALL: indian
boss(es) were late for >15 minutes today. me n dennis bumped into another 2 more intern students frm TP. both frm BIT. boss lurking ard not safe LOL later then i type more. SO BORING. but ok lah boss all nice ppl *or so it seems*
raffles place, some business IT consultancy company
office space: small
staff around: 4
race of majority of staff or rather, ALL: indian
boss(es) were late for >15 minutes today. me n dennis bumped into another 2 more intern students frm TP. both frm BIT. boss lurking ard not safe LOL later then i type more. SO BORING. but ok lah boss all nice ppl *or so it seems*
11 July 2003
am running out of space for my comics.
drats.
mum suggest we move the two shelves (one in my rm, one in the storerm)
put them both in a rm and make it my "comic corner" hahaha
cool idea but i not free and i lazy.
lolz mebbe next time.
the mere thought of me having to remove all the comics
and then shift the shelf
and the move the comic back in
is killer thought.
drats.
mum suggest we move the two shelves (one in my rm, one in the storerm)
put them both in a rm and make it my "comic corner" hahaha
cool idea but i not free and i lazy.
lolz mebbe next time.
the mere thought of me having to remove all the comics
and then shift the shelf
and the move the comic back in
is killer thought.
talked to wilfred for 20 minutes today hee so happy.
no one was queueing up behind him.
he said platoon 1, 2 and 3 of his Alpha camp got punished
they had to do push ups in the rain.
reason?
some bodoh frm platoon 3 go n whistle at a girl outside the camp
who's the girl?
their platoon commander's girlfriend.
LOL LOL LOL
then obviously sometime it's only human to be curious
so some of the guys frm other platoons looked out
end up all kana punished to do pumping. hahahaha
stupid horny bastard who whistled.
too long nvr c ger already.
mum is dreaming again.
suddenly while eating my corn sushi
she says, "if can get a refridgerator into ur dad's stall hor, mebbe we can start seeling sushi already"
O.O
*speechless*
no one was queueing up behind him.
he said platoon 1, 2 and 3 of his Alpha camp got punished
they had to do push ups in the rain.
reason?
some bodoh frm platoon 3 go n whistle at a girl outside the camp
who's the girl?
their platoon commander's girlfriend.
LOL LOL LOL
then obviously sometime it's only human to be curious
so some of the guys frm other platoons looked out
end up all kana punished to do pumping. hahahaha
stupid horny bastard who whistled.
too long nvr c ger already.
mum is dreaming again.
suddenly while eating my corn sushi
she says, "if can get a refridgerator into ur dad's stall hor, mebbe we can start seeling sushi already"
O.O
*speechless*
stupid template disappeared again. heng i do back up every time now...
hehehe was reading tootie's blog earlier on and she was complaining abt getting edgy feelings too after i mentioned to her abt mine *OopS?*
well i "migrated" to my dad's rm last night after he go to work. i took my pillow and bolster and blankets and went to sleep on his bed hahaha strangely enough, i fell asleep very soon. i wonder why... mum say my rm the mattress v old already... mebbe that's why... it's no longer comfortable to sleep on... making me have edgy feeling every night... taking me hours before i can actually fall asleep.
went downstairs to help wilfred buy ciggie and the shop owner ask me one day smoke how many packet. *raise eyebrow* DO I LOOK LIKE SOME1 WHO SMOKE? oh well i guess it's hard to tell bwahaha anyway i say i buy for other ppl one... it's the third time i bought ciggie frm him..
u noe girls tend to suck in their tummy to make it look slimmer right? i do that too of course cos when i let it dwn it makes me look hideously fat. like pregnant woman i wonder why. mebbe stomach too much hot air haha anyway todae nothing betta to do i stand infrnt of the mirror and look. i relaxed totally expecting a bulging tummy end up it stayed in the same position. *GLEAMING EYES* geez.. hahahaha i lost weight! great news wahahhaa at least i dun worry abt bulging tummy and paunch anymore wahahaha...
*sings* tml is satudarday tml is saturday *lalalalalala.....*
hmmmm *looks at ballerina sumomo* it's so cute rite? hahaha i amaze myself everytime i draw something. still can't believe i drew it.
hehehe was reading tootie's blog earlier on and she was complaining abt getting edgy feelings too after i mentioned to her abt mine *OopS?*
well i "migrated" to my dad's rm last night after he go to work. i took my pillow and bolster and blankets and went to sleep on his bed hahaha strangely enough, i fell asleep very soon. i wonder why... mum say my rm the mattress v old already... mebbe that's why... it's no longer comfortable to sleep on... making me have edgy feeling every night... taking me hours before i can actually fall asleep.
went downstairs to help wilfred buy ciggie and the shop owner ask me one day smoke how many packet. *raise eyebrow* DO I LOOK LIKE SOME1 WHO SMOKE? oh well i guess it's hard to tell bwahaha anyway i say i buy for other ppl one... it's the third time i bought ciggie frm him..
u noe girls tend to suck in their tummy to make it look slimmer right? i do that too of course cos when i let it dwn it makes me look hideously fat. like pregnant woman i wonder why. mebbe stomach too much hot air haha anyway todae nothing betta to do i stand infrnt of the mirror and look. i relaxed totally expecting a bulging tummy end up it stayed in the same position. *GLEAMING EYES* geez.. hahahaha i lost weight! great news wahahhaa at least i dun worry abt bulging tummy and paunch anymore wahahaha...
*sings* tml is satudarday tml is saturday *lalalalalala.....*
hmmmm *looks at ballerina sumomo* it's so cute rite? hahaha i amaze myself everytime i draw something. still can't believe i drew it.
10 July 2003
WWWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
hehehehehe tml gonna be friday and soon! it's gonna be SATURDAY!
hehehehehe wilfred called me up twice today and said he did some training on his own..
when i come back out into the living rm after talking on the phone
my show finish!!!!! arghhh and somemore the lead guy kana stab then end liao hahaha
kao heng i read reader guide noe wad's happening next bwahaha
hmm tml will be busy day packing n buying things n getting ready... i think i go plan now
hehehe
cya
:::: DRAGON VOICE NO MORE LIAO!! ARGH last bk... sob sob (my comic series lar)
hehehehehe tml gonna be friday and soon! it's gonna be SATURDAY!
hehehehehe wilfred called me up twice today and said he did some training on his own..
when i come back out into the living rm after talking on the phone
my show finish!!!!! arghhh and somemore the lead guy kana stab then end liao hahaha
kao heng i read reader guide noe wad's happening next bwahaha
hmm tml will be busy day packing n buying things n getting ready... i think i go plan now
hehehe
cya
:::: DRAGON VOICE NO MORE LIAO!! ARGH last bk... sob sob (my comic series lar)
hee wilfred called me today. we talked much longer than usual cos apparently no one was queuing up behind him hee hee he said he did lotsa training such as weights and push up n stuff like that... then say he kana "hamtam" by one of his bunkmates cos he ke siao pretend to be masturbating (action only) then the malay fren tot very disgusting so "hamtam" him hahahaha as usual lah wilfred so rubbish right? me my mum were debating abt the bus route to my work place before he called hahaha so i havta to her on "hold". might be on saturday we hav dinner together with my mum or something. ^^
i went out to buy comic in the afternoon.... i juz realised that i did not step out of the house even once for the past 2 days wahaha siao liao like hermit lidat...
i watched a documentary in the afternoon which is abt those french prisoners. jia lat sia.. death pales in comparison with the torture they get..
hmm then wad else..? oh yeah then there's another animal documentary abt smuggling animals.. then there was this bunch of exotic animals .. all the cute cute monkeys.. haiz haiz
i went out to buy comic in the afternoon.... i juz realised that i did not step out of the house even once for the past 2 days wahaha siao liao like hermit lidat...
i watched a documentary in the afternoon which is abt those french prisoners. jia lat sia.. death pales in comparison with the torture they get..
hmm then wad else..? oh yeah then there's another animal documentary abt smuggling animals.. then there was this bunch of exotic animals .. all the cute cute monkeys.. haiz haiz
Country Sumomo
something to add to my collection. haha ain't it so cute? i juz finished drawing it..... i've gotten the base (body structure) from AngyChan
i reallie like this sumomo alot for some strange reason. i've gotten more of other sumomo bases which are so darn cute. mebbe next time i'll draw more.
i think when my SIP start, soon i'll be hanging up a sign saying
hahahaha
08 July 2003
am feeling very very very sad right now.....
depressed beyond what words alone can explain...
i juz keep crying and crying and that's practically all i do...
no feeling and enthusiasm to do anything else anymore.
wilfred failed his IPPT test. i prayed and hoped but he still failed.
he sound really depressed on the phone and even said he cried in his bunk.
everybody wants to get out of the camp. half his bunkmates passed.
a few were left behind...
he did well for all the other test items except his pull up...
even his PC say wasted.
i thought we could've spent a week more......
i thought i can hav him fetching me after work....
i thought i will have someone there for me
when i can't cope with working.. the culture shock and all.....
i thought .... but the unexpected turned out.
this piece of news mattered so damn much to me...
yet i did not get what i hoped for...
he said he might call me later.... mebbe he will not...
i said "call me please"...
i cannot take this alone...
he said "mebbe talk a short while will be gd"
yeah.. at least better than nothing...
i tried to be strong
i tried to be optimisstic about it
i tried to be hopeful
yet now i feel .. choked up.
i juz can't stop crying...
damn..
now i juz wanna fast forward my time till saturday
so that i can meet him again.
i don't wanna think of anything else at the moment..
depressed beyond what words alone can explain...
i juz keep crying and crying and that's practically all i do...
no feeling and enthusiasm to do anything else anymore.
wilfred failed his IPPT test. i prayed and hoped but he still failed.
he sound really depressed on the phone and even said he cried in his bunk.
everybody wants to get out of the camp. half his bunkmates passed.
a few were left behind...
he did well for all the other test items except his pull up...
even his PC say wasted.
i thought we could've spent a week more......
i thought i can hav him fetching me after work....
i thought i will have someone there for me
when i can't cope with working.. the culture shock and all.....
i thought .... but the unexpected turned out.
this piece of news mattered so damn much to me...
yet i did not get what i hoped for...
he said he might call me later.... mebbe he will not...
i said "call me please"...
i cannot take this alone...
he said "mebbe talk a short while will be gd"
yeah.. at least better than nothing...
i tried to be strong
i tried to be optimisstic about it
i tried to be hopeful
yet now i feel .. choked up.
i juz can't stop crying...
damn..
now i juz wanna fast forward my time till saturday
so that i can meet him again.
i don't wanna think of anything else at the moment..
Your a very warm person who wants to be loved for
who you are. Love means the world to you but
you want it to be right. You have a vision of
perfection when it comes to true love. Just
remember, love is always perfect, but people
never are. You gotta be willing to take the
good with the bad, just as you want people to
except that about you.
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am feeling quite kanjiong about how wilfred fared for his test... even typing is also becoming rather difficult. quite strangely, i am shaking alittle.. geez..
chatted for quite awhile with karen when i juz woke up.. realised she's workin somewhere in raffles place too.
Robinson Point she says.. that's about somewhere near .. ok let's put it this way, if on a map her building is across the road, on the left of lau pa sat, mine will be across the street, in front of lau pa sat. hm ok lah not bad cos at least i know i have friends around the vicinity and since shaikha is working somewhere in eunos and finishes work at 6, i can travel back home on the way and meet up with her for dinner or something. kekeke...
hmmm i'm kinda blurry everyday... haha waking up late makes me feel even more tired. wonder what's the reason behind that.
07 July 2003
My latest work done. I call her the 'streetkid'. suddenly felt like doing up a doll with some character... i've always liking for streetwise characters. find them very attractive haha...
maha (shaikha's bf) failed his IPPT test which is the physical test they have in ns to determine if they get their 3 weeks off. he failed so he gotta stay in for one more week. wilfred's test is tomorrow.. i know he seemed demoralized by the fact charlie and delta camp hav so mani ppl fail but i hav a strong gut feeling that he will pass. wishing him all the best!! HE'LL PASS HIS IPPT! *ROOOOOAR*
today passed quite well for me. hm.. gotta plan wad to do tml..
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am done with most of what i noe i need to do. the resume... the template and all. *sigh* mr lin juz roughly told me wad my job scope might be. sounds freakingly tough. am trying to stay positive though. no other choice either... i am so freakin blur when i woke up that when dennis told me twice his email address, twice i got it wrong. shoot.
ok let's not think abt this. i rather enjoy the last of my holiday this term first.
am now waiting to hear wilfred's voice on the phone. i keep feeding myself with positive things to think of instead of the negative... stuff like.... i've handed in my resume before hand.. so now i no nid to rush... stuff like me being able to meet wif wil before SIP starts.. it might giv me much good exposure and experience... boss don't seem too bad.. i have a colleague with me.. so i'm not alone... everything might jus turn out fine u noe? cos at least i dun haf to rush project until like fuck. *cross fingers* ok i go rest my eyes. cya
finally am done with my resume. sent it already. shucks. now i'm wondering if i shld've called gary lin up to ask him check through first..... oh damn anyway send liao. heng suay not up to me already. hahaha had help frm tanya (lotsa lotsa hugs for her) and urban|c (lotsa lotsa help frm him too) and ah seng (hug hug hug!) hahahaha
frm yellow pages i found out the location of my work place liao. it's somewhere behind OUB.... opp lau pa sat... hehe
frm yellow pages i found out the location of my work place liao. it's somewhere behind OUB.... opp lau pa sat... hehe
got back from wilfred's hse and frm sending him off at his camp already.... met one of his bunkmate. a rather short fair skinned guy.. he's abt 157cm haha shorter than me. forgot wad is his name... jones or jonas or something like that... has a very humble look but his arms are damn big hahahaha wilfred say he can simply do 12 pull ups. my gosh.
i spent two great days at wilfred's house. on saturday evening we went out to meet my ex-colleague. lol wilfred was wondering how come i fell for wilson last time cos he say wilson not handsome hahahaha oh well... i muz admit wilson ain't the pretty boy type but he's gd boi and fit fit mar.. lolz but now he botak, v tan and all... abit not yandao, if not worse hahaha.. vincent same. no diff. hahah wenchuan i nearly luff until die. he go straighten his hair n it's slightly longer than before... martin has the greatest changes of all. i OMOST can't recognize him! at first i c his face i tot he become fat. then i realised it's not fat but DAMN FIT. like previous body X 2 lidat... the arms ar... so freakin thick hahaha then we went to eat first before going to duno where... parkmall nearby some lousy pool center to play pool... wenchuan keep 'chiak tsui' and me? no form lolz aiming abit cannot make it. wilson as usual lah damn gd wad to do? wilfred say he very accurate cos wilson alwaiz play billard one but i think they managed to play a few rounds and wilfred won him twice out of.... i duno how mani games. abt four or five..
hmmmmm at about nearing 10pm me n wilfred decided to leave. we walked to dhoby gaut and took mrt back home. the whole day.. beside the fact that the guys r abit stiff ard wilfred after all they met onli todae. wil managed to strike up a convo with wilson for quite awhile lolz. i'm very happy cos.... i enjoyed myself and cos i didnt' slp the night before, i got very emotional at night... i wasn't tired though strangely... but very emotional. then the thought abt SIP (my attachment) is also very stressful for me. cried alot.... talked to wilfred about how i was feeling and what i'm going thro and he hugged me and ask me to cry. said alot of things to console and encourage me... haha at least i'm glad he's ard to comfort me when i feel so weak. whenever he's with me i dun put up a brave front anymore? i let my emotions flow.... he said i was there for him when he had the hardest time in ns... now it's his term to help me with mine. we talked all the way till we got home where he put his uniform to wash and i cooked maggi for him. his dad was at home. i chatted with wilfred at night before we slept until about 2+ when he decides that we shld slp, he had his arms ard me while i lay on his chest. i think i took less than 5 mins to fall aslp. hahaha so tired.... he is more fit now? chest bigger wahaha feels like teddy bear so nice to hug. he say he woke up feeling his arms all numb *cos i lying on it* wahahaha so he had to pull his arms out. somewhere in the middle of slpin he literally bumped into me. suddenly jerked and bump so hard into me... hahaha siao one.
he woke up at abt 9.30am. i continued lying till 10.30 before draggin myself out of bed. woke up n brushed teeth while he was playing computer. we chatted by the comp while i checked my blog and all...... all the way until 11 then i go n iron his uniform. took 20mins to finish this time wahaha first attempt was 45++ min. second was slightly faster... this was the third attempt. haha then ironed the rest of his shirts for him to pack into his bag and folded his smart 4 (sleeves).. hmmm watched tv... had dinner with his folks.... his dad gave me a bag of nuts... duno wad u call it i think it's called pistachos or something and then his bro n yong an came home. bla bla lots... me n wil watched tv, slacked in his rm.. the whole time he was alittle preoccupied, thinking abt his IPPT (physical training). he wanna pass it so dat he can get his 3 weeks off to spend with me. i love being with him and love being able to talk to him cos talkin to him is so enjoyable and relaxed. i sent him back to camp and now i'm missing him already.
haiz. but i got things to do. a resume and email and stuff to prepare myself for my SIP. the briefing in the morning was boring in a way and very draggy. i'll stop here n go do my resume. cya
i spent two great days at wilfred's house. on saturday evening we went out to meet my ex-colleague. lol wilfred was wondering how come i fell for wilson last time cos he say wilson not handsome hahahaha oh well... i muz admit wilson ain't the pretty boy type but he's gd boi and fit fit mar.. lolz but now he botak, v tan and all... abit not yandao, if not worse hahaha.. vincent same. no diff. hahah wenchuan i nearly luff until die. he go straighten his hair n it's slightly longer than before... martin has the greatest changes of all. i OMOST can't recognize him! at first i c his face i tot he become fat. then i realised it's not fat but DAMN FIT. like previous body X 2 lidat... the arms ar... so freakin thick hahaha then we went to eat first before going to duno where... parkmall nearby some lousy pool center to play pool... wenchuan keep 'chiak tsui' and me? no form lolz aiming abit cannot make it. wilson as usual lah damn gd wad to do? wilfred say he very accurate cos wilson alwaiz play billard one but i think they managed to play a few rounds and wilfred won him twice out of.... i duno how mani games. abt four or five..
hmmmmm at about nearing 10pm me n wilfred decided to leave. we walked to dhoby gaut and took mrt back home. the whole day.. beside the fact that the guys r abit stiff ard wilfred after all they met onli todae. wil managed to strike up a convo with wilson for quite awhile lolz. i'm very happy cos.... i enjoyed myself and cos i didnt' slp the night before, i got very emotional at night... i wasn't tired though strangely... but very emotional. then the thought abt SIP (my attachment) is also very stressful for me. cried alot.... talked to wilfred about how i was feeling and what i'm going thro and he hugged me and ask me to cry. said alot of things to console and encourage me... haha at least i'm glad he's ard to comfort me when i feel so weak. whenever he's with me i dun put up a brave front anymore? i let my emotions flow.... he said i was there for him when he had the hardest time in ns... now it's his term to help me with mine. we talked all the way till we got home where he put his uniform to wash and i cooked maggi for him. his dad was at home. i chatted with wilfred at night before we slept until about 2+ when he decides that we shld slp, he had his arms ard me while i lay on his chest. i think i took less than 5 mins to fall aslp. hahaha so tired.... he is more fit now? chest bigger wahaha feels like teddy bear so nice to hug. he say he woke up feeling his arms all numb *cos i lying on it* wahahaha so he had to pull his arms out. somewhere in the middle of slpin he literally bumped into me. suddenly jerked and bump so hard into me... hahaha siao one.
he woke up at abt 9.30am. i continued lying till 10.30 before draggin myself out of bed. woke up n brushed teeth while he was playing computer. we chatted by the comp while i checked my blog and all...... all the way until 11 then i go n iron his uniform. took 20mins to finish this time wahaha first attempt was 45++ min. second was slightly faster... this was the third attempt. haha then ironed the rest of his shirts for him to pack into his bag and folded his smart 4 (sleeves).. hmmm watched tv... had dinner with his folks.... his dad gave me a bag of nuts... duno wad u call it i think it's called pistachos or something and then his bro n yong an came home. bla bla lots... me n wil watched tv, slacked in his rm.. the whole time he was alittle preoccupied, thinking abt his IPPT (physical training). he wanna pass it so dat he can get his 3 weeks off to spend with me. i love being with him and love being able to talk to him cos talkin to him is so enjoyable and relaxed. i sent him back to camp and now i'm missing him already.
haiz. but i got things to do. a resume and email and stuff to prepare myself for my SIP. the briefing in the morning was boring in a way and very draggy. i'll stop here n go do my resume. cya
i seem to be very expert at killing mosquitoes at night. juz killed two right before my eye. reached out and *clapped* and they died. or mebbe cos of the light in living rm. practically the only bright thing producing light is my monitor. mebbe mozzies are blurry at night. they fly slowly haha... normally can't even get a single hit. i hate this. i'm havin insomia n it sux. i'm gonna continue harping on this for the next 3 hrs until i leave the hse prolly...
fuckin hell. i'm having insomia for the first time. shit. supposed to wake up at 6AM and i've been lying on my bed since 11PM. haven't even fallen asleep ONCE. why sia!?
can't b cos i nervous. i simply hav too much brain activity. mebbe my body clock not in tune with the timing i haf to slp n wake. nevertheless i hav this irritating edgy feeling on my body. like as if it's some muscle ache or pants not right that kinda fucked up feeling. am not in the best of moods right now cos i can't sleep. fuck lah..... thank goodness i cancelled my japanese class if not how to survive sia...
can't b cos i nervous. i simply hav too much brain activity. mebbe my body clock not in tune with the timing i haf to slp n wake. nevertheless i hav this irritating edgy feeling on my body. like as if it's some muscle ache or pants not right that kinda fucked up feeling. am not in the best of moods right now cos i can't sleep. fuck lah..... thank goodness i cancelled my japanese class if not how to survive sia...
04 July 2003
hmmm...
suddenly i have this set of thinking. i mean it's juz my own thinking. in every relationship, there's bound to be challenges. especially when it involves a third party. what if this wonderful, nobody-can-tear-us-apart relationship suddenly have a third party? then ur world comes crashing in. anger, fear, betrayal.. sense of lost.. everything starts setting in. i've learnt my lesson. we might panick. we might lose control over ourselves and our emotions. but if you believe in yourself, believe that YOU are the one who is suitable for him (not childishly believe of cos), instead of whining over it, instead of using underhand methods to get him/her back, instead of pushing any blame to anyone or do things that will make you hate yourself or let your partner hate you.... focus on how to get him back. prove your worth. prove that you are the better choice over the third party. let him turn around and be amazed by your calmness, ur understanding, ur willingness to be by his side no matter what. let him see what you are truly made of and admire you for your character. if successful, you earned back what you almost lost. and for better results, hehehehe sekali the relationship better than before.
i'm glad that what i believed in, and that sense of hope i always have.... pulled me through. many thought i was holding on the something that's dying. some things that i'm being too naive. but if i myself lose hope, that what's there in life to look forward to? lol can only say that i'm lucky that i did not get a more complicated situation to handle. for those who did and pulled through, they are a amazing bunch of ppl.
suddenly i have this set of thinking. i mean it's juz my own thinking. in every relationship, there's bound to be challenges. especially when it involves a third party. what if this wonderful, nobody-can-tear-us-apart relationship suddenly have a third party? then ur world comes crashing in. anger, fear, betrayal.. sense of lost.. everything starts setting in. i've learnt my lesson. we might panick. we might lose control over ourselves and our emotions. but if you believe in yourself, believe that YOU are the one who is suitable for him (not childishly believe of cos), instead of whining over it, instead of using underhand methods to get him/her back, instead of pushing any blame to anyone or do things that will make you hate yourself or let your partner hate you.... focus on how to get him back. prove your worth. prove that you are the better choice over the third party. let him turn around and be amazed by your calmness, ur understanding, ur willingness to be by his side no matter what. let him see what you are truly made of and admire you for your character. if successful, you earned back what you almost lost. and for better results, hehehehe sekali the relationship better than before.
i'm glad that what i believed in, and that sense of hope i always have.... pulled me through. many thought i was holding on the something that's dying. some things that i'm being too naive. but if i myself lose hope, that what's there in life to look forward to? lol can only say that i'm lucky that i did not get a more complicated situation to handle. for those who did and pulled through, they are a amazing bunch of ppl.
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hee!! wilfred called!! hahahaha todae call so early... he say jayce is queueing behind him haha so i ask him dun let jayce tok LOLZ whee tml can see him!! *runs abt in circles squealing* WHEEEEEE! -koff koff- ..muz.. maintain.. compos..ure.. hahaha wah.... then tml muz c abt 5 ns guys. wah liao hahaha tml my ex-colleague mostly go ns liao haha can take the chance to luff at them while they botak and the soon-to-be-botak martin kekeke
hee!! wilfred called!! hahahaha todae call so early... he say jayce is queueing behind him haha so i ask him dun let jayce tok LOLZ whee tml can see him!! *runs abt in circles squealing* WHEEEEEE! -koff koff- ..muz.. maintain.. compos..ure.. hahaha wah.... then tml muz c abt 5 ns guys. wah liao hahaha tml my ex-colleague mostly go ns liao haha can take the chance to luff at them while they botak and the soon-to-be-botak martin kekeke
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wah lan.
wake up only get 4 sms.
one tell me to go sch by 8AM tml morning until 1PM den can go home. *bad news*
one tell me her blog template disappeared again *bad news*
the other abit nothing one.....
then followed by constant smsing frm friends.....
aiyo.... i wan to go dwnstair photostep things one leh hahahaha end up sms until now oso haven't go dwn.. tml sian sia from 9AM change timing until 8AM. very fun hor?? teachers dun like to sleep one issit? kaoz. why the stupid briefing 5 hours long!?!?!?!?
i fixed pat's template again since it disappeared again.
called her on the phone to tell her that and she ask me why my voice so man. hahahaha man meh? get used to it lah it happens once in awhile when my voice is deeper.
wake up only get 4 sms.
one tell me to go sch by 8AM tml morning until 1PM den can go home. *bad news*
one tell me her blog template disappeared again *bad news*
the other abit nothing one.....
then followed by constant smsing frm friends.....
aiyo.... i wan to go dwnstair photostep things one leh hahahaha end up sms until now oso haven't go dwn.. tml sian sia from 9AM change timing until 8AM. very fun hor?? teachers dun like to sleep one issit? kaoz. why the stupid briefing 5 hours long!?!?!?!?
i fixed pat's template again since it disappeared again.
called her on the phone to tell her that and she ask me why my voice so man. hahahaha man meh? get used to it lah it happens once in awhile when my voice is deeper.
stupid blogged cocked up juz now. first mine, then patricia's lolz.
she came askin me to help her solve the prob and i can see that she's already distressing and panicking. cos i myself stared blankly at the screen for a while. i suggest u guys go back up ur template codes before anything crops up. i managed to get her codes back after much headaching. hahahaha cos i faced some prob with the tables. lucky me, iman came online. though she didn't exactly solve my prob, she said something that hinted me to search for some stuff that eventually lead me to solving the prob. hehehehehe
i juz found out frm pat that i gotta be in sch by 8.30AM in the morning on saturday!!! fuck! so early sia! siao one... den after that i go find my wilfred hehehe... hmm wad was it i wanna say?
*stones for 10 minute*
i forgot. HAHA. oh well..... it happens. i think after saving mine n pat's blog i killed quite alot of brain cells. hahaha
today friday already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TML CAN SEE WILFRED HEHE
but then i nid to go sch first. ah sucks lah hahaha
03 July 2003
stupid blog. kaoz i open up my own window and what i see? blank page. checked out blogger edit and guess wad?
HALF THE TEMPLATE CODES ARE GONE.
it's like.....wad the fuck!?!?!?!?
i stared at the computer in disbelief for a few minutes before knowing what truly happened. i don't know HOW it happened or WHY it happened. luckily i'm sane enough to keep some back up last time but it's kinda backdated. so i compared the backdated codes with the html codes i gotten by view source frm the archives and made some changes before implementing it. shit man.
i went down to JCS earlier on the submit my letter to be excused from classes this saturday. reached back home at about 3pm and at abt 4 something, jeremy called up to ask me accompany him dwnstairs cos he's nearby and wanna go eat. talked quite abit and then i went back upstairs. mum was already home with hm.. duno whether to call it lunch or dinner but anyway, got home and re-did my template. hope it works fine. basket. *grumbles alot*
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i stared at the computer in disbelief for a few minutes before knowing what truly happened. i don't know HOW it happened or WHY it happened. luckily i'm sane enough to keep some back up last time but it's kinda backdated. so i compared the backdated codes with the html codes i gotten by view source frm the archives and made some changes before implementing it. shit man.
i went down to JCS earlier on the submit my letter to be excused from classes this saturday. reached back home at about 3pm and at abt 4 something, jeremy called up to ask me accompany him dwnstairs cos he's nearby and wanna go eat. talked quite abit and then i went back upstairs. mum was already home with hm.. duno whether to call it lunch or dinner but anyway, got home and re-did my template. hope it works fine. basket. *grumbles alot*
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i just got back frm my trip out with sano and shaikha. hmmmmmm... we didn't do anything spectacular. juz hanged out and had some fun with each other's company three of us seem to click quite well haha pretty cool. we guys met up at the sommerset mrt stn ctrl. once again, shaikha see me n say i look smaller. sano came soon after and cos i complained abt being hungry, so we went over to cine to haf our lunch at long john's silver. walked over to annex to get a new pouch for wilfred ^^
will treat it as a annivasary gift for him. $15!!!
it's kinda big, black, and haf a few compartments. kekeke can put quite alot of things so i guess he'll like it. we walked around, shopped around in Annex, shaikha went into a couple of shops to check out the stuff. then we went into the toy shop on the top level of Annex. hahaha stayed in there for quite awhile cos sano is lookin at the cat soft toys.
walked back into annex we soon got bored so we left for borders instead. actually, we were walking towards kino but i duno how we end up in borders hahahaha anyway, hang ard in borders checking out mags and books and all sorts of other things... slacked around.. even read through some sex bks
-_____-"
got out of borders we went upstairs to look around. toys shops.. loitered ard the corridors... and guess wad? lolz i saw Andrea Sequira (ex-sec sch classmate) workin at NYDC. (new york dessert cafe) called her a few times n she didn't notice me adoi hahaha then shaikha n sano keep kacauing me
say sekali i mistake.. recognize wrong person my face recoginition skill very powerful one ok!!! hehehe
anyway, soon left to go to far east. loitered around abit before heading dwn to level one. finally wilfred called me while we were walking about. i was so kanchiong.. afraid dat he might not call. he say he was on guard duty... i told him abt saturday already... he say ok. after that, we walked all the way back to plaza singapura. hahahaha so far sial!!! anyway... walked around then i called martin to ask him to join us for saturday he's coming i think kekeke basket. kacau me sia when i ask him for his hp number (cos i called his hse) purposely say fast fast... end up muz ask him repeat 3, 4 times. he asked me who's going i told him is vincent they all.. then he's like: "wah! all old friends haha" then he asked abt me n wilfred cos i called him up when i was havin prob with wil. how nice to him to ask. he's going to ns soon!! 6th of August haha say we better "zi dong" help him celebrate. make saturday a farewell party for him lolz!!! basket still like to talk rubbish as usual.... i had fun with him lah.. used to talk to him on the phone hahahahaha for 4 hours sia..
hang up liao, me, shai n sano had drinks and fruits at the food court. after that we went into ezone to play hahaha quite fun lah... played some strange wacking games and house of the dead while the two of them played racing game.
BECOS of shaikha's cravings, hahaha we went to dhoby gaut mrt stn n took a train dwn to lau pasat to eat hahaha had satay and some you tiao with cuttle fish eat alot sia... all so oily hahahaha we are so freakin unhealthy. chatted for quite awhile there had fun lah today. ^^ quite enjoyable actually only dwn side is i'm having abit of runny nose so my jaws ached alot and i felt very groggy n sleepy...
now i'm very love sick still... keep thinking of wilfred.... three days has almost passed. times seems to past much faster now and i can't wait till saturday comes along again. i miss him so much. he seem..... less enthusiastic lately. mebbe he is tired. i'm being sensitive i know cos i dun wan his tone to be sian sian all the time although the things he says shows dat he is luv sick hahaha but duno lah... the time we get to talk seem to be less n less and i can hardly talk properly to him.
i had a gd day out today.
dats wads impt.
gd to b ard close friends sometimes. haha
i just got back frm my trip out with sano and shaikha. hmmmmmm... we didn't do anything spectacular. juz hanged out and had some fun with each other's company three of us seem to click quite well haha pretty cool. we guys met up at the sommerset mrt stn ctrl. once again, shaikha see me n say i look smaller. sano came soon after and cos i complained abt being hungry, so we went over to cine to haf our lunch at long john's silver. walked over to annex to get a new pouch for wilfred ^^
will treat it as a annivasary gift for him. $15!!!
it's kinda big, black, and haf a few compartments. kekeke can put quite alot of things so i guess he'll like it. we walked around, shopped around in Annex, shaikha went into a couple of shops to check out the stuff. then we went into the toy shop on the top level of Annex. hahaha stayed in there for quite awhile cos sano is lookin at the cat soft toys.
walked back into annex we soon got bored so we left for borders instead. actually, we were walking towards kino but i duno how we end up in borders hahahaha anyway, hang ard in borders checking out mags and books and all sorts of other things... slacked around.. even read through some sex bks
-_____-"
got out of borders we went upstairs to look around. toys shops.. loitered ard the corridors... and guess wad? lolz i saw Andrea Sequira (ex-sec sch classmate) workin at NYDC. (new york dessert cafe) called her a few times n she didn't notice me adoi hahaha then shaikha n sano keep kacauing me
say sekali i mistake.. recognize wrong person my face recoginition skill very powerful one ok!!! hehehe
anyway, soon left to go to far east. loitered around abit before heading dwn to level one. finally wilfred called me while we were walking about. i was so kanchiong.. afraid dat he might not call. he say he was on guard duty... i told him abt saturday already... he say ok. after that, we walked all the way back to plaza singapura. hahahaha so far sial!!! anyway... walked around then i called martin to ask him to join us for saturday he's coming i think kekeke basket. kacau me sia when i ask him for his hp number (cos i called his hse) purposely say fast fast... end up muz ask him repeat 3, 4 times. he asked me who's going i told him is vincent they all.. then he's like: "wah! all old friends haha" then he asked abt me n wilfred cos i called him up when i was havin prob with wil. how nice to him to ask. he's going to ns soon!! 6th of August haha say we better "zi dong" help him celebrate. make saturday a farewell party for him lolz!!! basket still like to talk rubbish as usual.... i had fun with him lah.. used to talk to him on the phone hahahahaha for 4 hours sia..
hang up liao, me, shai n sano had drinks and fruits at the food court. after that we went into ezone to play hahaha quite fun lah... played some strange wacking games and house of the dead while the two of them played racing game.
BECOS of shaikha's cravings, hahaha we went to dhoby gaut mrt stn n took a train dwn to lau pasat to eat hahaha had satay and some you tiao with cuttle fish eat alot sia... all so oily hahahaha we are so freakin unhealthy. chatted for quite awhile there had fun lah today. ^^ quite enjoyable actually only dwn side is i'm having abit of runny nose so my jaws ached alot and i felt very groggy n sleepy...
now i'm very love sick still... keep thinking of wilfred.... three days has almost passed. times seems to past much faster now and i can't wait till saturday comes along again. i miss him so much. he seem..... less enthusiastic lately. mebbe he is tired. i'm being sensitive i know cos i dun wan his tone to be sian sian all the time although the things he says shows dat he is luv sick hahaha but duno lah... the time we get to talk seem to be less n less and i can hardly talk properly to him.
i had a gd day out today.
dats wads impt.
gd to b ard close friends sometimes. haha
02 July 2003
am going out with sano and shaikha later...
might be searching for a pouch for wilfred
since his one spoil already....
and also, mebbe go holland village slack awhile.
i've been thinking, how to jaga time on saturday
since wilfred wanna do light training
yet at 6pm i have to meet up with vincent they all..
i guess it's not abt fitting the schedule in but..
hm... it's wilfred's bookout day afterall...
dun wanna eat into his personal time to rest..
juz cos i hafta go out or something....
haiz
irritating...
i'll discuss it on the phone with him later...
if it's possible.
might be searching for a pouch for wilfred
since his one spoil already....
and also, mebbe go holland village slack awhile.
i've been thinking, how to jaga time on saturday
since wilfred wanna do light training
yet at 6pm i have to meet up with vincent they all..
i guess it's not abt fitting the schedule in but..
hm... it's wilfred's bookout day afterall...
dun wanna eat into his personal time to rest..
juz cos i hafta go out or something....
haiz
irritating...
i'll discuss it on the phone with him later...
if it's possible.
chatted with shaikha over the phone.
arranged to meet up at 3:30PM tml
at sommerset mrt stn.
sms-ed sano the whole day hardly get any replies.
juz called him up and he's sleeping hahaha
wah liaaaaaaaao.
while i was chatting with shaikha abt quite a number of stuff
meimei called my hp and asked me out on saturday
gonna meet up with vincent they all. my ex-colleagues..
wilson will be there hahaha
he is a guy whom i had a major crush on last time.
haha
will be bring wilfred along since i can't leave him at home
and i reallie wanna meet up with the others
lolz
one stone kill two bird.
arranged to meet up at 3:30PM tml
at sommerset mrt stn.
sms-ed sano the whole day hardly get any replies.
juz called him up and he's sleeping hahaha
wah liaaaaaaaao.
while i was chatting with shaikha abt quite a number of stuff
meimei called my hp and asked me out on saturday
gonna meet up with vincent they all. my ex-colleagues..
wilson will be there hahaha
he is a guy whom i had a major crush on last time.
haha
will be bring wilfred along since i can't leave him at home
and i reallie wanna meet up with the others
lolz
one stone kill two bird.
01 July 2003
haha can finally fit into my mum's jeans. last time can't even fit half my ass into it. LOL
hey means i did shed some fats hahahaha
but damn. my mum so mean hahahaha gav me a new top of hers and ask me wear.
say help her "stretch" it.
*growl*
think i balloon meh.. lolz
but the jeans is still abit tight haha at least around the waist
sit dwn slightly uncomfy..
*stress*
later the button fly out how!? hahahahahaha
still got another 2 n half hr before the time wilfred can call
tml go out with shaikha they all duno do wad gd
*stress more*
time seems to past faster... hope i can see wilfred soon
hahahaha
i think too much already
um.. shucks. muz ask teacher on sat whether i can ask
relatives or friends to stand in if my folks can't come...
i asked my aunt already haha
i just realised how nice smelling is the perfume rieru san sent me
will use it more often hehehe
mum say i very 'curvy'
lolz
shaikha say my figure is considered hourglass figure..
she juz now had her hp in her rm while she is in the living rm
so end up maha had two miss calls before reaching her
then when she finally picked up
all she got frm him were angry swear words.
adoi.
understandable why he got angry but shld've refrained frm the language
since time is so precious when it comes to calling her...
will get wilfred to talk to him if possible..
hey means i did shed some fats hahahaha
but damn. my mum so mean hahahaha gav me a new top of hers and ask me wear.
say help her "stretch" it.
*growl*
think i balloon meh.. lolz
but the jeans is still abit tight haha at least around the waist
sit dwn slightly uncomfy..
*stress*
later the button fly out how!? hahahahahaha
still got another 2 n half hr before the time wilfred can call
tml go out with shaikha they all duno do wad gd
*stress more*
time seems to past faster... hope i can see wilfred soon
hahahaha
i think too much already
um.. shucks. muz ask teacher on sat whether i can ask
relatives or friends to stand in if my folks can't come...
i asked my aunt already haha
i just realised how nice smelling is the perfume rieru san sent me
will use it more often hehehe
mum say i very 'curvy'
lolz
shaikha say my figure is considered hourglass figure..
she juz now had her hp in her rm while she is in the living rm
so end up maha had two miss calls before reaching her
then when she finally picked up
all she got frm him were angry swear words.
adoi.
understandable why he got angry but shld've refrained frm the language
since time is so precious when it comes to calling her...
will get wilfred to talk to him if possible..
tanya stole the quiz frm her sister's blog, put it into hers and is nagging at me to do it so ... here goes. was abit long so i cut them into parts.
Bedroom Quiz
1. What is the color of your room? i THINK it's supposed to be white but then over the years it turned yellowish... parts behind the closet i dare not guess it's colouration.. o.O
2. Do you have personal pictures on the walls? i would like to put lah but then again.. i'm not alone... *shrugs*
3. Did your parents let you pick out the colors of your room? sneaky them placed me in that rm when i can't even remember how to write my name.
4.Do you have magazine clippings taped to your walls? No.... like i said i would love to.. now i juz stick them all in a bk.
5. What are all the posters in your room? *evil look* i said i DUN HAF. outside living rm near my 'corner' got.. um.. i think my living rm is more like my rm.. got tv.. my desk.. my comp.. my arm chair.. my comics all over the place.. my diary and organizers.. geez.. mebbe i shld shift a bed over someday n juz slp there.. oh! i off topic. um i haf one chobits poster, a sticker of chobits, hikaru no go and japanese hiragana chart..
6. How many windows are in your room? um.. how to count? um.. on one side of the wall.
7. Do you have a TV and VCR? no such luck mate. mebbe in the future.. when i haf my own rm or when i move into an apartment with wil..
8. Do you have a CD player? dun even haf discman..
9. Do you share your room with anyone else? my MUM
10. Are you allowed to have food and drinks in your room? my mum will fry me for breakfast lunch n dinner if i do dat. i wouldn't want ants visiting my ear or cockroaches kissing me in the middle of the nite.
11. Is your room where you spend most of your time? um.. change the location to living rm can?
12. What's your favorite thing about your room? my mum who's lyin on the bed and my 4 bolsters o.O n 2 pillows n huge blanket bwahahhawahaha...
13. What's under your bed? mebbe dead n squashed cockroaches
14. If you could change one thing about your room, what would it be? make it my own haha
15. Do you have a desk in your room? um sorta like a ... wad do u call dat? dressing table?
Bedroom Quiz
1. What is the color of your room? i THINK it's supposed to be white but then over the years it turned yellowish... parts behind the closet i dare not guess it's colouration.. o.O
2. Do you have personal pictures on the walls? i would like to put lah but then again.. i'm not alone... *shrugs*
3. Did your parents let you pick out the colors of your room? sneaky them placed me in that rm when i can't even remember how to write my name.
4.Do you have magazine clippings taped to your walls? No.... like i said i would love to.. now i juz stick them all in a bk.
5. What are all the posters in your room? *evil look* i said i DUN HAF. outside living rm near my 'corner' got.. um.. i think my living rm is more like my rm.. got tv.. my desk.. my comp.. my arm chair.. my comics all over the place.. my diary and organizers.. geez.. mebbe i shld shift a bed over someday n juz slp there.. oh! i off topic. um i haf one chobits poster, a sticker of chobits, hikaru no go and japanese hiragana chart..
6. How many windows are in your room? um.. how to count? um.. on one side of the wall.
7. Do you have a TV and VCR? no such luck mate. mebbe in the future.. when i haf my own rm or when i move into an apartment with wil..
8. Do you have a CD player? dun even haf discman..
9. Do you share your room with anyone else? my MUM
10. Are you allowed to have food and drinks in your room? my mum will fry me for breakfast lunch n dinner if i do dat. i wouldn't want ants visiting my ear or cockroaches kissing me in the middle of the nite.
11. Is your room where you spend most of your time? um.. change the location to living rm can?
12. What's your favorite thing about your room? my mum who's lyin on the bed and my 4 bolsters o.O n 2 pillows n huge blanket bwahahhawahaha...
13. What's under your bed? mebbe dead n squashed cockroaches
14. If you could change one thing about your room, what would it be? make it my own haha
15. Do you have a desk in your room? um sorta like a ... wad do u call dat? dressing table?
16. Do you always do your homework on that desk? sometimes i use it to study, most of the time mum put make up there
17. Do you have a phone in your room? no
18. What kind of phone is it? u duno english issit? i said DUN HAF.
19. What color is your phone? DUN HAF DUN HAF DUN HAF.
20. Do you have stuffed animals in your room? um.. they have been relocated to the top of my dad's closet.
21. Any Porcelain Dolls? no way. freaky stuff
22. What color is your carpet? dun haf any
23. Do you have a mirror in your room? two
24. What do you dislike about your room? the unwanted visitors. *kills mosquitoes*
25. What poster would you like on your wall? cute ones
26. Do you have a pet or plant in your room? neither
27. What kind of bed do you have? juz a huge mattress
28. What is the color of your bedspread? *peeks into rm* um. flowery stuff wif pink n blue n green
29. Is your room usually clean? yes
30. Do your friends like your room? hm dat u'll hafta ask my frenz. they usually gape n stand in awe infront of my comic collection hahaha
17. Do you have a phone in your room? no
18. What kind of phone is it? u duno english issit? i said DUN HAF.
19. What color is your phone? DUN HAF DUN HAF DUN HAF.
20. Do you have stuffed animals in your room? um.. they have been relocated to the top of my dad's closet.
21. Any Porcelain Dolls? no way. freaky stuff
22. What color is your carpet? dun haf any
23. Do you have a mirror in your room? two
24. What do you dislike about your room? the unwanted visitors. *kills mosquitoes*
25. What poster would you like on your wall? cute ones
26. Do you have a pet or plant in your room? neither
27. What kind of bed do you have? juz a huge mattress
28. What is the color of your bedspread? *peeks into rm* um. flowery stuff wif pink n blue n green
29. Is your room usually clean? yes
30. Do your friends like your room? hm dat u'll hafta ask my frenz. they usually gape n stand in awe infront of my comic collection hahaha
J^Luv^|ke i feel so pek chek
J^Luv^|ke suddenly all the lousy feelings can juz come at one time to attack me when i'm most vulnerable
Nicholas` well~
Nicholas` gotto
Nicholas` shikkari shite
Nicholas` ^^"
J^Luv^|ke i forgot wad is shikkari
Nicholas` erm
Nicholas` like
Nicholas` " zhen zuo
J^Luv^|ke i juz dissed kyori off
Nicholas` dissed?
J^Luv^|ke say mean thing
Nicholas` like?
J^Luv^|ke hm
J^Luv^|ke guess he said stuff i didn't like to hear
J^Luv^|ke i was rotting away
J^Luv^|ke and am frustrated cos of that
Nicholas` oic
J^Luv^|ke i'm bored, missing my bf dearly, and trying to find things to do, feeling like an outcast everywhere, realising that a bunch of gd classmates went out but i'm not invited etc
J^Luv^|ke adds up to frustrate me away
Nicholas` ic
J^Luv^|ke and he say i am wasting time sitting infrnt of the comp and shld find something to do. it's practically stating the obvious
Nicholas` dun feel this way
J^Luv^|ke so i lost my mind for a sec
J^Luv^|ke lolz`
Nicholas` think positively
J^Luv^|ke am trying to
J^Luv^|ke i haven't lost my temper for nearly a mth
J^Luv^|ke been controlling it v well
Nicholas` mi too
J^Luv^|ke boredom reallie drives ppl up the wall sometimes.
Nicholas` i get very pissed when i m feeling happy
Nicholas` n my dad juz scold me for some stupid things
J^Luv^|ke i am literally bored to tears
Nicholas` i Wanna Scold him bacK but
Nicholas` haiz
J^Luv^|ke lolz
J^Luv^|ke u noe that strong irritable and agitated feeling like as if someone say wrong thing will make u feel like killing them?
Nicholas` ya
haiz. blame no one but myself to be wasting time away like that. esp it the last few weeks before the start of my SIP. but i can't help it. i'm literally bored to tears. or mebbe it's not boredom. it's loneliness...
hates it whenever it creeps back into my life... esp when i'm most vulnerable...
to think that i called jeremy up juz now hahaha
didn't even know they went out..
tml sano is going over to ken's hse to jam..
i could've joined along cos they asked me to...
but something in me stopped me..
hate to feel left out... i wonder why.. mebbe it's coming back to me... bad memories of the past. damn how i wish i can juz erase them off like a video tape.
J^Luv^|ke suddenly all the lousy feelings can juz come at one time to attack me when i'm most vulnerable
Nicholas` well~
Nicholas` gotto
Nicholas` shikkari shite
Nicholas` ^^"
J^Luv^|ke i forgot wad is shikkari
Nicholas` erm
Nicholas` like
Nicholas` " zhen zuo
J^Luv^|ke i juz dissed kyori off
Nicholas` dissed?
J^Luv^|ke say mean thing
Nicholas` like?
J^Luv^|ke hm
J^Luv^|ke guess he said stuff i didn't like to hear
J^Luv^|ke i was rotting away
J^Luv^|ke and am frustrated cos of that
Nicholas` oic
J^Luv^|ke i'm bored, missing my bf dearly, and trying to find things to do, feeling like an outcast everywhere, realising that a bunch of gd classmates went out but i'm not invited etc
J^Luv^|ke adds up to frustrate me away
Nicholas` ic
J^Luv^|ke and he say i am wasting time sitting infrnt of the comp and shld find something to do. it's practically stating the obvious
Nicholas` dun feel this way
J^Luv^|ke so i lost my mind for a sec
J^Luv^|ke lolz`
Nicholas` think positively
J^Luv^|ke am trying to
J^Luv^|ke i haven't lost my temper for nearly a mth
J^Luv^|ke been controlling it v well
Nicholas` mi too
J^Luv^|ke boredom reallie drives ppl up the wall sometimes.
Nicholas` i get very pissed when i m feeling happy
Nicholas` n my dad juz scold me for some stupid things
J^Luv^|ke i am literally bored to tears
Nicholas` i Wanna Scold him bacK but
Nicholas` haiz
J^Luv^|ke lolz
J^Luv^|ke u noe that strong irritable and agitated feeling like as if someone say wrong thing will make u feel like killing them?
Nicholas` ya
haiz. blame no one but myself to be wasting time away like that. esp it the last few weeks before the start of my SIP. but i can't help it. i'm literally bored to tears. or mebbe it's not boredom. it's loneliness...
hates it whenever it creeps back into my life... esp when i'm most vulnerable...
to think that i called jeremy up juz now hahaha
didn't even know they went out..
tml sano is going over to ken's hse to jam..
i could've joined along cos they asked me to...
but something in me stopped me..
hate to feel left out... i wonder why.. mebbe it's coming back to me... bad memories of the past. damn how i wish i can juz erase them off like a video tape.
